MissDeborah69
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Trigger warning: discusses domestic abuse and living children
One of the.biggest things bothering me and holding me back is an abortion I had over 20 years ago. At the time I was an only child, both my parents had died and aI was alone and pregnant and very vrry sick. I told the man I was seeing, he flipped out, went.into a rage and beat me.up. He demanded I have an abortion. I was at a loss with no support. At the clinic I vouiced my reservations, I felt atleadt maybe I could have the.baby and put it.up for adoption. I was sicker than ever to the point I couldnt work and would.have been homeless. The guy was more livid than ever that I didnt go through with the abortion and refused to.help me at all except to pay for the procedure. At that point I was just.hopeless, panicked and scared out of my.mind alone. I couldnt see any way to have that baby by myself. I cried and prayed to God. I only.had one week left before they wouldnt perform an abortion past the first trimester. I decided being as sick as I was and with.no.other option, I went for the abortion. This has haunted me ever sense, especially seeing my friends kids growing up. I am trying to forgive mysrlf, and I seem to blame myself....Not sure why I cant forgive myself, the guy had responsibility too. I dont know what to do.
One of the.biggest things bothering me and holding me back is an abortion I had over 20 years ago. At the time I was an only child, both my parents had died and aI was alone and pregnant and very vrry sick. I told the man I was seeing, he flipped out, went.into a rage and beat me.up. He demanded I have an abortion. I was at a loss with no support. At the clinic I vouiced my reservations, I felt atleadt maybe I could have the.baby and put it.up for adoption. I was sicker than ever to the point I couldnt work and would.have been homeless. The guy was more livid than ever that I didnt go through with the abortion and refused to.help me at all except to pay for the procedure. At that point I was just.hopeless, panicked and scared out of my.mind alone. I couldnt see any way to have that baby by myself. I cried and prayed to God. I only.had one week left before they wouldnt perform an abortion past the first trimester. I decided being as sick as I was and with.no.other option, I went for the abortion. This has haunted me ever sense, especially seeing my friends kids growing up. I am trying to forgive mysrlf, and I seem to blame myself....Not sure why I cant forgive myself, the guy had responsibility too. I dont know what to do.
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