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[Sad post] Emotional Roller Coaster

Discussion in 'Guest Board' started by ttang09, Feb 11, 2014.

  1. ttang09

    ttang09 Guest

    I have always had a hard time dealing with my emotions. Two weeks ago, on January 24, 2014 I had my first and am extremely determined to make it my ONLY abortion. My boyfriend (possibly soon to be ex) is in the military. We've been apart for the majority of our relationship. So, when this happened, I was going in alone. Yes, I had friends to support me, but the one person I needed to be there, wasn't. So it's caused a huge rift in our relationship. I resent him for not being here. I hate myself for not being more careful. I drown myself at work and school in hopes of getting a good night of sleep, which rarely works. I find myself drinking more. I throw on a smile every day, just to find myself crying any time I can get a moment to myself. I just don't know what to do anymore. I need help, but I don't know where to go or who to talk to.
     
  2. Lunar Lady

    Lunar Lady Well-Known Member Alumni Volunteer

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    I am so glad you have found the PASS site. Pass is somewhere you can release your emotions and know there is support always there for you. Other women at PASS have travelled the path you have begun. Just by reading or sharing similar experiences gives you a connection to hang on to while you are going through all the "stuff" an ab can bring for you to get through. I can hear your pain and loss and I'm sending you a big hug sweetie. When you feel ready, just log in to the boards, it's all anonymous.
     
  3. ~Karen~

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    welcome, please create an account so you can access the boards, it's a place filled with support in a safe and non judgemental environment :)
     
  4. Buckette

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    As awful as it all is, there's nothing you've mentioned that many of us have not experienced......please do make an account and join us on the main boards. It's a good, safe place where no one is judged, no one is doubted and no one says to just move on, it's in the past. We get it. Sending you hugs.
     
  5. hoping

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    I know what you mean. Its been seven years. I drink more than I should. It helps mask everything. The thing is -- its only a bandage. Don't let the drink get the better of you because it makes you forget or feel numb enough to deal with it, or try to forget it.

    My AB dad is no longer in the picture. He's in a new relationship & I can't help but feel angry that he got off easy and can now move on. I don't know if he still thinks of me. I hope he does. I hope he still thinks of what we went through.

    I've had a few relationships and only one knows about what happened. My choice will stay with me forever. Yours will too.

    However, you can chose to try and drown it with booze or whatever, or you can seek counseling (and please do!) and work through it before coping mechanisms become habits become addictions.

    A lot of schools or community centers will help you through this without judgement. Don't be afraid to find a another counselor if one or two don't work out.

    You can do this and you will get through. You deserve to feel whole again.