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I'm not sure if I'm grieving or if I'm being too sensitive.

Discussion in 'Guest Board' started by Confused and Lonely, Oct 28, 2017.

  1. I don't know what to do any more. I've been engaged to him for seven years now, raising his two children from a previous marriage, dealing with his debt and household. I've had three abortions while with him... the first two each time he promised never again. Then the year we agreed to be married and have kids... I got knocked up... and had another abortion...

    My impatience with marriage and kids was an exciting wait of what was to come; discussing the future, oohs and aahs over baby shoes, talking about how we would parent our children, normal things.

    Now that I'm not married because I've been such a "disappointment and failure", to know that I can't have kids until I "fix" myself... his words have destroyed me...

    I don't know if I'm actually grieving or if I'm just having a pity-party. I don't feel like I have a right to mourn at this point, but I can't help this? I don't understand and I'm just hurting I guess.

    Is this valid? I know I made the choices. I never wanted to... but I couldn't put those babies through their father resenting them... resenting us...
     
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  2. Buckette

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    I think it sounds very valid, hun, and I strongly recommend that you register for an account and join the members on the main boards. The Guest board is only seen by Administrators and Volunteers. It's a good, safe neutral site where everyone understands because everyone has been there one way or another.
     
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    I don’t think you’re having a pity party. You have suffered real losses and trauma. I hope you will join us on the main boards so that you can benefit from all the support there. :j
     
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    We look out for and after each other here, I very much hope you'll join up...we are vilified, and all too often.....your not on your own, and no, it's not just you xx
     
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    Hello, yes, it does sound valid and you do have every right to mourn and grieve. I hope you will join us on the main boards by registering. You will find a lot of support and you will not be judged on the boards. Xxxx
     
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