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It still hurts till this day

Discussion in 'Guest Board' started by Lexie110180, Mar 5, 2018.

  1. Lexie110180

    Lexie110180 Guest

    I found out I was pregnant in March I was 20 I had just started a good well paid job and connected with old high school friends and just doing so good till I came back from a trip with friends To get off of my mind what my ex done to me because on January 2016 i found out he was cheated on me all year with multiple people I knew him for 15 years and he was my first everything I got really depressed over the break and more when I found out he gave me a sti and I knew it was from him because he’s the only one I been with so when I took test the sti came up and my pregnancy I was so up set depress and I felt it was the end of the world I hated him so much for given me something like that . That I totally for got the love of my child I always pictured a family with him but not this way I was so depressed I was messing up at work and school witch I got fired and kicked out of school so how I was I going to support a child he quit his job and didn’t graduate high school he was constantly smoking and would make excusses to show up to the appointments so all that was in the back of my head saying if I kept this baby i would do it alone becuse i know my parents wouldn’t help and his parents are hardly in his life so I went to planed parenthood sitting there waiting for them to give me the iv and they couldn’t find my vines I should’ve know that was a sign to not do it but I still went through with it witch hurts the most because deep down I didn’t want to do it I just had fear and I regret my choice till this day I wish I could take it back but I was scared for me and my baby health due to the sti I didn’t want my baby to be born with that my ex would constantly cheat on me and I would take him back but recently now that we cut are realshionship I think and be like what if I had that baby would he change would he be a different person and I wish I could go back to that and I’m feeling regret ashamed and wish I could go back
     
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  2. Trigeo

    Trigeo The Serial Poster Staff Member Administrator Super Moderator Moderator Support Specialist Manager SRG Leader Technical Administrator SRG A5 SRG B5 SRG C5 Moon Emerald Flip Flops Butterfly Leaves Canada

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    Hi, Lexie. I’m sorry you experienced that and found out your partner was unfaithful as well. That is really low. I hope you will register for an account an join us on the main boards where you can talk with all of our members. This board is only viewable by volunteers and guests but the main boards have a whole community of supportive people who will help you through this. I’ll keep you in my thoughts. :j
     
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  3. environmentalist

    environmentalist Well-Known Member Jr. Support Specialist SRG C5 Flip Flops

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    Hi Lexie, sorry you had to go through all of that! I hope you will register with us and find the support that you need. Hugs x
     
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  4. Las

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    Hey sweaty Thank you for being so brave and sharing part of your story (((hugs))). As the others have said you can make an account and join us on the main board. You will be met with the most compassionate and caring people.
     
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