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Just need to "talk"

Discussion in 'Guest Board' started by Unregistered, Jul 17, 2016.

  1. Unregistered

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    I had an abortion 31 days ago. I didn't tell anyone, not even my husband. We already have 3 children, and we are done, but a birth control failure put me in this situation. I really wanted to tell him, I could have used his support. But his family is very religious and I know that he would have wanted to keep this baby, not because he wants more, but because we would have been obligated to. I couldn't do that. I am honestly done having children, and I don't feel like I'm the best of mothers anyway. So I had the abortion, a medical abortion at just a little over 4 weeks, and he never knew, just thought I was having a heavier than normal period.

    I am really struggling with my emotions. I thought it would be no big deal, because no one would know. Instead, I have been mad. Mad at myself for being in this position. Mad at those around me for making me feel like I have to hide and be ashamed. Guilty for ending a life, I feel empty inside, like my soul has left. Like I've been abandoned by God. These feelings have been made worse because my cousin just had a baby. Everyone wonders why I have kept my distance, but I can imagine that this would be like my child. She, I imagine that it would have been a girl because of the intense sickness I felt similar to my pregnancy with my daughter, she would be wrapped in pink instead of blue. But I don't hold this new baby, because I know I could not have had this baby.
     
  2. Buckette

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    I'm so, so sorry for all you've been through and are going through, hun; but I strongly recommend that you register for an account and join the community on the main boards. This board is only seen by volunteers and Admins.........but there are many, many members on the main boards who can identify with your story and with whom you can relate. It's a good, safe, supportive place with a lot of truly amazing members.
     
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    Yes, please do join up. (((hug)))
     
  4. Trigeo

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    You've been through so much alone already; we can help you through now with our conpassionate community. We really do understand; we've been there or are there. I hope you will join us on the boards, and I'm thinking of you.