1. This site uses cookies. By continuing to use this site, you are agreeing to our use of cookies. Learn More.
  2. For every glitter purchase made this month, you will receive a surprise glitter gift as a token of our appreciation.

    What will it be? We can't tell you, but it will be sparkly and FREE!

    Go ahead and make your glitter purchases to take advantage of this special offer!
    Dismiss Notice

Regret

Discussion in 'Guest Board' started by Unregistered, Jul 25, 2016.

  1. Unregistered

    Unregistered Guest

    Hi guys, here's my story. I'm 22, and have a boyfriend that I've almost been with for 2 years. Not too long ago I found out I was unexpectedly pregnant before getting to explore new options of birth control. We decided the best decision for both of us was to have an abortion. I just opened my own salon, and was really advancing in my career. When I told my boyfriend I was pregnant, he reacted in a way I never could have imagined. We are very close and tell each other everything. He made it clear to me he didn't want to be a father yet. I felt it was the right decision at the time to go through with the abortion but now I feel like something I've always wanted in my life was taken from me. I feel like I made the wrong decision to not have the baby. I keep having flashbacks to the days of doctor's appointments back when I just found out I was pregnant. I'm finding myself very jealous of girls announcing their pregnancies or posting pictures of their kids, seeing pregnant woman at the store, it all upsets me. I feel like I can't get over it. My boyfriend and I are still together but lately I feel so depressed or disconnected and I can't relate at all some days. I've tried opening up to my friends but they haven't been through it and I feel don't understand the loss I'm going through. I do wish I kept the baby and feel disgusted with myself, or worthless somedays. I'm not happy at my job or proud of my accomplishments.....I feel like being a mother...would have completed me. I just feel like a part of me is gone and I don't know how to get closure. I don't feel like anyone understands this loss I feel. I'm mad that I feel my decision was influenced so much on what everyone else wanted that I'm the one who isn't happy in the end. I think about it almost every day. Please help....
     
  2. Buckette

    Buckette Oldie Staff Member Administrator Super Moderator Moderator SRG Manager SRG Leader Technical Administrator Junior Support Specialist Manager Moderator Manager SRG A5 SRG B5 SRG C5 SRG D5 SRG G5 SRG F5 Sapphire Turquoise butterfly Autumn Yellow Leaf Emerald

    Joined:
    Nov 10, 2009
    Messages:
    26,805
    Gender:
    Female
    Location:
    Oregon
    I'm so sorry for all you are going through and all you are struggling with, hun; but I strongly recommend that you register for an account and join the amazing and supportive members on the main boards. Everyone's story is their own, but the emotions and the grief are usually surprisingly similar.

    We all understand, we've all been there or are there; but this board is only seen by volunteers and administrators. Please take the leap, it's a good, safe place.
     
  3. Trigeo

    Trigeo The Serial Poster Staff Member Administrator Super Moderator Moderator SRG Leader Technical Administrator Support Specialist Manager SRG A5 SRG B5 SRG C5 SRG G5 Yellow Rose Turquoise butterfly Autumn Yellow Leaf Emerald Hot Drink Halloween Bats Angel February Leaves

    Joined:
    Nov 6, 2010
    Messages:
    23,465
    Gender:
    Female
    Location:
    Canada
    Like Buckette said, so much of what you're describing is familiar to many of us, although each of us has our own set of circumstances.

    I hope you will join us on the boards and connect with the many compassionate people in our supportive community. You didn't have the support you needed in real life before your abortion, and that's a shame, but you can have support now, from people who really understand.